Complaining about life with mess up Brain

I am not complaining about life. Its just that my mind are all mess up. Or so I think it is. ALL the time I have been thinking about what is the purpose of me walking on this EARTH. I am a nobody. I have none. I am THANKFUL TO GOD that for all the gift that has been given to me. But as human, I am limited to my need to obtain security and safety of me and also those that are related to me. As living requires the need to eat, and food requires money, which lead to work for the benefit of surviving. I don't know what to speak off about cause my brain is currently mess up. So much to talk about while thinking and typing but as it flows, it goes into millions of path. Clueless and meaningless with variety of messages lead to haziness of purpose of my word. Well, until my next post. Thank you for reading my mess up Brain.